Recently God has revealed to me that I struggle with depression and have for a very long time. It’s something that I’ve tried to deny, but is a constant theme in my life. For years I was in denial because it feels like a bit of an oxymoron to call myself a Christian and also admit that I am depressed. In moments of vulnerability where I have chosen to disclose this information I am met with such things as “oh really?! i had no idea.” or “are you sure it’s not PMS?” 1) I have not forgotten how to smile and 2) yes, I am sure.
One of the unfortunate things about my admitting to this is that some of you (or most of you) will label me as a depressed person and chalk a lot of what I say up to the fact that I am depressed. Let me be clear, I struggle with depression, but that does not define me. I have not lost my mind or my ability to ration or to reflect God’s image.
And as an encouragement to those who may be in the same boat as me: you are not your anxiety or your depression, you are an image bearer of the Living God, adopted and called His own. Do not allow the enemy and your sin nature deceive you into thinking that you are less than that. Shane and Shane recognized in their song “Embracing Accusation” by saying:
Oh the devil’s singing over me
That age old song
That I am cursed and gone astray
He’s singing the first verse so conveniently
But he’s forgotten the refrain
We believe lies and half truths, we believe that we are less than who God has declared us to be. We believe this because it feels right, we recognize that we are sinful, that something is seriously wrong with us. But we exclude that solution, Jesus. God sent His Son to declare us righteous and to rescue us from certain damnation. This is the mighty God that we serve.